mummy's birthday...

Today is my birthday. I am turning 33 this year.

I am a mum-to-be, and having a baby will be the best birthday gift ever!

No, or not yet?

I feel so lucky, I am the one of the few pregnant women among my friends who does not have morning sickness, and other sort of early pregnancy 'sickness'.

It is so enjoyable being pregnant at this very stage, and I love it.

Yes I do! May be the joy of my pregnancy has tremendously transformed my pregnancy hormones to positive hormones, I am feeling good every day.

8 is a lucky number!

I am at exactly week 8!

Week 8, and I just can't stop counting....

I am feeling great, so well that for a second, I just do not believe I am pregnant!

My pregnancy is such good timing!

I am thinking to myself, my pregnancy is such good timing.

Sugar and I got married in the first quarter of 2008. We did not plan to conceive straight away although I was already in my thirties. We took things quite easily, and thought that we should enjoy our lives as much as married couple. We were ready to start a family, but we would not want to rush things, although our parents waited anxiously for such good news.

Sugar wanted to concentrate on his career. As for my going-no-where-great kinda career, I really did not mind to get pregnant. We did have so many good times. We did fun things randomly, enjoyed our days off together seeing friends, or simply had good times as a couple.

When we planned to go to Ibiza, and I thought it might be a great idea for us to escape from our routine and had our craziest summer holiday while we were still 'young' and with no kids. We booked the holiday one month in advance. I did kinda plan to have some romantic nights and perhaps we could try for a baby!

Who knows, when I was worrying about how many sets of bikinis I should pack for the holiday, and then I was 'late'. I was also worried that a beach holiday would not be appropriate if it clashed with my period, the news came in when I used the cheapest home pregnancy test that was available from Boots. I tested it twice and it said positive!

Great news, great news, and we are so ready!

We are truly ready, financially and emotionally. Therefore, it is such good timing. I accepted my pregnancy news with great joy, and I am sure I will make this pregnancy as enjoyable as possible.

I still can't believe that I am becoming mommy soon!!!

Saturday...

It is weekend!

Nothing much to do, both Sugar and I are working...I just can't wait for the day my maternity leave starts. I am so going to be a stay-at-home mum-to-be!

I am not sure whether I will want to give up work when the baby is here. I guess I will...

May be a stay-at-home mum will be my ultimate lifetime career!

My growing bump...

My bump is showing, just a little.....
I am feeling great as a pregger!

Top Secret!

NOT ME!!!

First trimester, and i just feel like telling every one the good news! I am only 8-week pregnant. I guess, it will only be wise to announce the good news on or after my 12-week scan. Keeping this piece of good news as a secret is so tough!

Fortunately, I have an extremely easy early weeks, no morning sickness, no unusual food cravings. I feel so well, and I can eat anything without feeling nausea. This is great. Four more weeks to go before I start to tell the world that I am going to be a mum soon !!!!!

Our stay-in day...

Relaxing day, and we take things easy, relaxing at home, just the two of us... I love this staying-in feeling, no work, no chores, and no one bothers about time and schedule. It is free, it is spontaneous, just the two of us...

Oh, we do not get this very often, and we will be getting this less and less when we become a family of t.h.r.e.e!

Dad-to-be...

Sugar is such a cool daddy, and he told me he wanted to speak to little B every night before we go to bed. These days, he likes talking to my tummy and I would love to see my growing bump and Sugar practicing Daddy's cool!!

This is still very early stage of my pregnancy, and he is still thrilled and excited at this moment. Let's see whether he will be enthusiastically reading bedtime stories to little B every night when little B arrives!

I said I really want a daughter, and Sugar loves having a daughter as our first child too. I guess, no matter what gender, boy or girl, we are sure to pamper the little B and love little B unconditionally!

I will be going to my first antenatal appointment in 2 days time, and meeting the midwife for the first time. I am nervous!!

We are at Ibiza!!

Such an awesome holiday.

Clubbing, sun bathing, sunset, sight seeing and good food. Lots of TLC from the husband and I am still not getting any morning sickness, and I hope this is totally fine.

I got tired easily with too much of walking, and I even feel tired very easily on the dance floor.

Nevertheless, this is the best holiday that I have ever had, with the husband and the little B inside my womb!

Mummy, Daddy and little B to Ibiza.

We are flying off to Ibiza tomorrow. The holiday is booked in early June before we discovered that we are expecting. A holiday to Ibiza is meant to be a romantic getaway for the both of us, or in another words, a chance for us both to spend some quality time together.

It is very exciting to know that I am taking the flight with the little B inside me. I pray hard, there will be no morning sickness or whatever sickness to ruin our summer holiday!

I have also checked with my GP that it is alright to take a flight. It is only a two-hour flight. I am kinda worry about the swine flu but my GP assured me that to carry on as normal and it is nothing to be worried about.

I am going to stock up lots of anti bacteria wipes to put in my hand bag and I guess I will use that a lot.

Packing for holiday is fun and I love it. I also have a checklist to make sure that I do not leave anything behind. I am bringing two sets of bikinis, and it is such a relief to know that the bump is not showing until I am at my 12 weeks. So, it is ok to wear my bikini and hide the news away.

Looks like insect bites..

For the past few days, I have had very itchy skins on both the lower part of my legs, and on my left wrist.

Went to the chemist and the pharmacist looked at my rashes and she said they looked like insect bites. She was crap and I asked her for some cream so that I could apply on my skins to stop the itchiness and she told me I could not use any of the over-the-counter cream at this early stage of pregnancy. She recommended calamine cream to me. So i bought it.

Been using the cream for a few days now, and I would say, the itchiness reduced, but now, I have got spots due to excessive scratching. Hmm, I hate ugly skin like this!

I look up on the internet and done a self diagnostic, I suspect that I have scabies (yikes)!! The strange part is, Sugar sleeps next to me and he has no itchiness at all, if I were really having scabies, and scabies can be passed on. So, i might not be having scabies, though the pictures of scabies look just about the same as my rashes.

I think it is not scabies.

..and the worries continue...

I am still worrying, I simply cannot help it.

I am also glad that there are so many information on the internet and on books that help me to get over my worries, and find out about what is normal and what to expect at this stage.

I am having my first antenatal appointment with the midwife on 14 July...I have to wait before I see her and I want to ask her everything and tell her about my worries...

I pray hard!

I am getting all types of worries and I am beginning to worry about small little things about my pregnancy. One minute, I start to think about miscarriage and go look up on the internet about all symptoms of miscarriage. The next minute, I am googling every food and made sure I put the right food into my mouth that would not harm my baby! This is getting too much now, and I am sure I have to stop this bad habit right now! I am getting very annoying with myself. The next thing is, i want to know whether I should go to Ibiza, a holiday that we booked a month before we discovered we are expecting!

Although this is still at a very early stage, I have already felt completely tired with the worrying and I hope this will not go on until Week 40, oh god please help me!

One day, I would be monitoring my body consciously about my discharge, I keep checking my pantyliner to make sure I do not get spotting. The next day, I would be feeling my body and get anxious with all sorts of little pains and cramps. Then I would look up on the internet about small little thing and I swear I google the stupidest phrase on earth!

I am sure all fist time mum-to-be go through this stage and I assure myself that as time goes by, I would be feeling dramatically happy about being pregnant. This is so far, my best achievement because I am making a baby, a baby who will bear our genetic significance and carry it to the future generations.

July

It is July. July is my favourite month because I was born in July!
I used to really fancy and always hope to have a July baby, at least share the same month with me, for sharing the same birthday would be like a 0.0001% chance.

Now, I got a feeling that the baby might share the same birthday with Sugar. Sugar's birthday is in March...

Daddy's cool!

I got this pair of slippers for Sugar and he loves it.

He has been feeling all excited about becoming a dad-to-be now and constantly wanted to caress my tummy, which at this moment, it is still not felt pregnant at all. I still fit into my skinny jeans, oh thank god!

T.w.i.n.s

Snow, a very good girl friend back home in Kuala Lumpur. She is one year older than me, but we got along really well. We got many things in common, and we used to go out a lot when we worked in the same office. We have the same heights and similar body shapes, and we both have round face and used to have the same hair styles that many people in the office used to get confused with the two of us, and some even called us twins!

We carried on feeling like twin sisters to each other for sometime and really love being sisterly to each other. Unfortunately, being like twin sisters to each other only lasted for a year, all because of my decision to further my studies overseas and to live in a foreign country. We used to worry so much about not being able to marry the right man, worried about our future, worried about most things that 30-something women would ever worry about...

In the past, we were both equally worrying that our boy friends would not want to marry us. When wedding bells were ringing and almost all of our girl friends got married, we desperately thought we needed to propose to our boy friends! Then, things turned out fine that we were both married in 2008. I had my wedding in April 2009 and she had hers in May 2009. She attended my wedding, but I did not make it to hers. After the wedding, we awesomely enjoy our married lives, yet, constantly worrying about our fertility, due to peer pressure!!!

We have been talking so much about baby-making, share all our funny stories on how to boost fertility, and pray hard for each other. We support each other endlessly, as sometimes we would feel completely down especially we both have been surrounded by too many baby news from our mutual friends. We even made the remarks that we would both end up not able to experience the joy of pregnancy, and we would encouraged and advised each other that life without baby can be as great as possible!

As I was worrying about how to break the good news to Snow, even though I knew it well that she would take the good news positively, she came and tell me the greatest news ever! We are both conceived in the same month!!!

This is indeed, our twin-power. I used to joke that we would get pregnant at the same time, and having two sets of twins between us, so that would make it to 3 sets of twins including us both. Now, I just cannot imagine if the both of us are pregnant with twins!!

What a week full of good news and happiness. We are going to have our babies around the same time, and I just cannot help thinking that our children would become best friends too!